"we need to feel breathless with love and not collapse under it's weight..."

Today has been good. No fighting with the hubs, my kids are coming home on Friday and then my mom is coming on Monday. My mother planned her whole trip to come get my kids so they could go back home with her. Most of the time, I am the planner -- I plan everything so I'm really grateful and relieved that my mom figured this out without me.

I have decided to cut people out of my life who bring nothing but drama. I have recently discovered the absolute psycho-ness of one of my ex-friends. This person is probably one of the worst people I've ever met and the scary part is that it's hidden very very well. And the lengths this person will go for revenge is unreal so... I'm just going to drop them like a bad habit and hope that I'm not targeted next.

I had to come early from Arkansas because my uncle has serious problems. I cannot be around him anymore, nor will my kids be. It sucks because I don't know how I'm going to see my grandma now but I do know I can't subject myself or my kids to him. He's dangerous.

I can forgive some people for just about anything. Really. I am a very very forgiving person. There are approximately 3 people who I can't forgive for the way they've treated me or the people I love. My uncle is one of them. I will carry these feelings of resentment and anger towards him for the rest of my life probably. I can't let it go -- and he isn't worth my forgiveness anyway. And I'm sure he isn't sorry for anything he does. He's enabled so much, he probably thinks he acts right all the time. He's a hypocrite and a terrible person. So he, too, shall be cut from my life. Uncle who?? I don't even know -- he's practically dead to me now.

My 4th of July weekend was pretty good. I went to the beach and a casino. Mississippi is nice this time of year.
We saw a washrag in the ocean. I thought, "this ocean is DIRTY!" and then I theorized it might be from the hurricane a few years ago. There is most likely all kinds of personal property floating in the ocean now. It couldn't have been a Rolex or a diamond ring that floated up to me - no. It was a dirty washrag. Just my luck. It almost touched my leg and Constance freaked out.

It was a fun trip. I think I'm ready for summer to be over though. Let's get back to school!
I'm ready! :-)

shoes and sand

gulfport, mississippi

song of the day:

I love this song.