karma

Every time I think I get a little bit closer, it actually turns out that I'm two steps backwards. Oddly, the scenery looks the exact same. No wonder I can't tell the difference.

I challenged myself this week and on Day 2.5 of the Challenge, my good mood turned sour and I was back on the Depression Train. It's not going to last this time. It's gonna be the shortest ride on the Depression Train ever! I can't give other people that much power over my emotions. Everything he does is mind games and I'm not falling for it again.

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My friends are pretty f*cking awesome. I honestly don't think I could have a better set of friends. I am truly BLESSED for every single person in my life, for whatever they bring to it -- even the negative. I don't use the word 'blessed' a lot but that's how I feel about my friends. I learn something fron EVERYONE I meet. Everything is a learning experience and I truly enjoy every person I come across -- even miserable, horrible people.
Speaking of karma and miserable, horrible people, what I like about it is the "fairness" of it. If you put ugliness out in the world, then you get it back. It's about who you are inside and the conscious decisions you make to do good or bad things, the intent behind the action.

So now, I'm going to work on POSITIVE energy. It's been a great weekend-- even though literally nothing of significance has happened. My frown is back to being upside down and this next week is going to rock my socks off.

Positive energy, guys.
I feel like I'm radiating sunbeams and that I can end the war with my smile.